I m such a pathetic beta. I should kill myself soon.
Goddess Nicole Streit from Pareci Novo.
Btw. pls don't type her name, pls just call her N. Thank you.
She lives in Brazil and i know her personally.
I need to focus on my obsession with N again.
I'm Interested with N. I get hard when someone types in her name.
It's her harmonious and perfect life. She had a great c'hild*hood as a spoiled only chil'd, finished school brilliantly and completed a difficult course of study.
Of course, she also got a well-paid job as a civil engineer straight afterwards and met her Jonathan, whom she married last year.
She even has her own house. At the age of 29. Her body is flawless, she is wearing only the nicest clothes and she actually thought that all of this was completely normal and would have no consequences.
She is very helpful and doesn't really have anyone who doesn't like her. But i hatelove her so much you can't imagine.
From the first moment i met her I was
addicted to her. It grows and grows. When I see her pics or hear her voice or even just imagine her in my sick
head, my thick disgusting cock immediately starts to get hard. I then have to rub it for a long time.
I jerk off all the time and often for weeks without ejaculating. I avoid doing that so that I don't get any stupid ideas, like not ruining it. I try not to cum for her for the most longest time so that i will going deeper and deeper as i allready told u.
And so one day after another goes by in which I rub my hard, slippery cock for her and get excited about her and her photos and information. It's enough if someone writes her name. Sometimes I have to put my cock in the cage so that I don't ejaculate.
I just hate her beyond belief. I want to destroy her life and at the same time I adore her. She dominates my whole day. I can hardly concentrate, I become unreliable, I neglect my work and my family, I become more careless. She controls me without even knowing it.
She controls me by determining, without knowing it, what I think about day and night. Namely about her. And I simply can't get rid of this addiction. I use every free second to think about her. I get more and more into everything. It determines my thoughts and what I do.
And of course I become more careless and it also controls my existence in a way, because the more people know about my obsession, the more dangerous it becomes for me.
She makes me neglect my everyday life, job, family and friends. That I wank for days and weeks on end. Not sleeping at night and no longer being able to perform during the day. But she also causes my thoughts to become more and more blatant. And she makes sure that I don't cum anymore.
I really mustn't cum, otherwise I won't become more crass and careless. The whole thing will going to ruin me some day. If I were to ejaculate, I would probably come to my senses and focus on other things again. It really shouldn't come to that.
And I love being motivated, praised and spurred on so much.
I think it's all her fault, since she exists.
Fuck i need never again cum to her to so just in this way i can build up more and more hate. The trick will also be to jerk off as much as possible or to be aroused as often as possible during the day or to get excited but not reach orgasm.
Her love name first of all. Her smile. Her body shapes. Clothes. That friendly and helpful nature. Her hair of cause. I love how she looks, her full name, her clothes, her smile, her breast, her cumface.
I hate her life, that she exists, that she just has a lucky life without anything to do for that, that she has a job, her fuckin cumface, her r*pe body, her dumb smile. I should definitely get more and more involved and hate her more and more.
I should kill myself soon.
My obsession.
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